Hello blog, Wow i don't know where to start, everything is so messed up, i tried refraining myself to blog that's cause i didn't want it to be all emo, but who am i kidding? so i went on with it after all it is my diary like a public one.

Right so where am i to start?

EXAMS

every time i hear the word OLEVLS it scares the day light out of me gosh, i cant sleep, i have to do something about it, the feeling is so unexplainable maybe there's a word for it i just don't know, well its some what like ‘OLEVEL’ and its as thou i am tipped off the edge of reality and falling into a black deep dark hole a never ending one, when u anxiously await for the thud and well you just don't get it, it hits you unexpectedly.

But i try to ease my panicking brain with excuses, which humans are used to or particularly me. I do it two way to ensure the calmness to last, one is to come up with an excuse and then supporting it, example don't panic the more you panic the less is absorbed by your brain and the supporting reason is when you look forward to something the pressure is just too much, block out the tension and focus as much as you can after all panicking gets you back to square one and focusing as much as you can in little time given might not get u all top but at least somewhere.

Am i weird for talking to myself?

HELL NO

its much better, you are your own friend and no this is not a excuse for a loner, its the truth no one knows you better than you do, in fact you might not know you talk to yourself the whole time, for me the brain and the hearts desire makes the best results, i am going to continue panicking, but i need to thou, to remind me not to become all idle and stop my self from resting my big fat ass (from all the emotional eating) on the couch.

ANOTHER THING IS MY FUTURE.

If olevels are gut-wrenching, what's in for the future, i mean like if i cant do this how can i take up anything else? is it because i have no school, no tuition, all on my own? these cant be a reason and definitely an excuse, then explain the eager minds, or could that be because people have different brain capacity? is this an excuse? i don't know but i m trying to give my all in all, which i haven't been lately, i am just so scared all i know is i asked for this, how many misleads is there? god help me please!

HOW WAS BEYONCE? ONLY LIKE AWESOME ISNT SHE.

her f1 custom made outfit, now that my son is what you call FLY.

Have you guys seen her ‘IF I WERE A BOY’ routine sick i tell u sick!

i never like the song thou until rkelly’s remix.

beyonce is god i love her mayne!

hope she comes to singapore again, off to the japan and middle east, hard @ work.

QUEEN B rules.

GOD I AM DYING TO WATCH THE VMA’s

stupid MTV.com, cant watch it at home since the screens @ my home are busy.

here's to inspirations that keeps you going, or at least the thoughts you have

CRIKEY.

TOODLES.

so long.

Hello blog, Wow i don't know where to start, everything is so messed up, i tried refraining myself to blog that's cause i didn't want it to be all emo, but who am i kidding? so i went on with it after all it is my diary like a public one.

Right so where am i to start?

EXAMS

every time i hear the word OLEVLS it scares the day light out of me gosh, i cant sleep, i have to do something about it, the feeling is so unexplainable maybe there's a word for it i just don't know, well its some what like ‘OLEVEL’ and its as thou i am tipped off the edge of reality and falling into a black deep dark hole a never ending one, when u anxiously await for the thud and well you just don't get it, it hits you unexpectedly.

But i try to ease my panicking brain with excuses, which humans are used to or particularly me. I do it two way to ensure the calmness to last, one is to come up with an excuse and then supporting it, example don't panic the more you panic the less is absorbed by your brain and the supporting reason is when you look forward to something the pressure is just too much, block out the tension and focus as much as you can after all panicking gets you back to square one and focusing as much as you can in little time given might not get u all top but at least somewhere.

Am i weird for talking to myself?

HELL NO

its much better, you are your own friend and no this is not a excuse for a loner, its the truth no one knows you better than you do, in fact you might not know you talk to yourself the whole time, for me the brain and the hearts desire makes the best results, i am going to continue panicking, but i need to thou, to remind me not to become all idle and stop my self from resting my big fat ass (from all the emotional eating) on the couch.

ANOTHER THING IS MY FUTURE.

If olevels are gut-wrenching, what's in for the future, i mean like if i cant do this how can i take up anything else? is it because i have no school, no tuition, all on my own? these cant be a reason and definitely an excuse, then explain the eager minds, or could that be because people have different brain capacity? is this an excuse? i don't know but i m trying to give my all in all, which i haven't been lately, i am just so scared all i know is i asked for this, how many misleads is there? god help me please!

HOW WAS BEYONCE? ONLY LIKE AWESOME ISNT SHE.

her f1 custom made outfit, now that my son is what you call FLY.

Have you guys seen her ‘IF I WERE A BOY’ routine sick i tell u sick!

i never like the song thou until rkelly’s remix.

beyonce is god i love her mayne!

hope she comes to singapore again, off to the japan and middle east, hard @ work.

QUEEN B rules.

GOD I AM DYING TO WATCH THE VMA’s

stupid MTV.com, cant watch it at home since the screens @ my home are busy.

here's to inspirations that keeps you going, or at least the thoughts you have

CRIKEY.

TOODLES.

so long.