BLAHBLAHBLAH you feel down so?
Its a surprise that i even have confidence, I mean my family, they are 100% sure I am dumb, 'HEYO UR TWENTY, YOU NEVER FINISHED SCHOOL, WE SHOULD SEND YOU TO ART SCHOOL SINCE THAT THE ONLY THING YOU CAN DO! I mean, Im NOT DUMB, I JUST SLACKED ALOT! My mom is the only one who says, i trust you, you can do it, you've never failed a test you studied for, yea right Einstein, it kills me thou what she says, Its just her trust in me, but it sounds like a slap to me, like 'BOOYAH you should have studied', i like really slacked for 2 years really, now im this dumb bitch, who cant even enter vocational school or even go to school for a short term course. Yea my brainic sister caught up with me, she's literally more educated than me. SIGH the only way i cant take a step any further is to have a shot at this years O's, Ive slacked like all my life, my 6std was the last i put my blood and sweat, after that my 7th and 8th i totally fuck cared and ever since i fuck cared, and that why i never got anywhere! I wish ill be allowed to do my o's, Im not going to work, mind you i worked full time when i was suppose to do my o's never went to school or any type of tutuion what so ever. Maybe if i did things would have been different. ARGH CRAP, i take things so easy in life, so easy its back to bite me in the back. SIGHHHHHH.
i know they want the best for me, ie, my uncle got on the comp for an hour and kept checking schools for me, really touched me man, i really cant put it words, but if i do art school where can i go from there? i firstly have to muster courage to join a art school, get confidence to get my work out there and learn all i can, then finish school have enough confidence to start or get hired, this whole thing is like gambling and i dont think i can pull myself through.
oh these suicidal thoughts, noooo.
back to square one, rock bottom.
i know they want the best for me, ie, my uncle got on the comp for an hour and kept checking schools for me, really touched me man, i really cant put it words, but if i do art school where can i go from there? i firstly have to muster courage to join a art school, get confidence to get my work out there and learn all i can, then finish school have enough confidence to start or get hired, this whole thing is like gambling and i dont think i can pull myself through.
oh these suicidal thoughts, noooo.
back to square one, rock bottom.
